Spent the whole day at home yesterday. I wish I could sleep more. I got a headache again. It hurts so much and it feels like i want to bang my head at the wall. Arghhhhhh................

Had a great day today!!!! Here is the event of the day.......
Went out as early as 8.30am from the house to met Herda & Moshee at 9am at Bugis for Breakfast at ZamZam. Eat quite a lot as i was hungry. hehehehehe Then met the others; Joops, Pinky, Ghani & Zunah to watch Charlie's Angels at 10.30am. The 1st movie shown that day. And it is the 1st time that i watch movie at that time. We had Burger King for Lunch. Then had a small ride of NEL; stopping nearly at every stations. Lastly, we stop at Senkang, Compass Point where we had ice-cream while waiting for Herda's Hubby, Kamal. My sister and I was too full to eat for the last meal. So we just sit there watching the others eating. Had a small early celebration for Moshee & Ghani's Birthday.
Had to rush backed as there will be a small gathering at home. My sister brought some "satay" in celebration of getting her 1st pay. Not to make her feel say, i forced myself to eat some although i am dead full. (That is why i was rushing home everyone. Hope u all don't mind that)
Now i am dead tired and sleepy. Just came back from "Masjid". Will be sleeping soon after seeing those pictures at Herda's blog. hehehehe

I brought myself a perfume!!!! Can u believe it??? I never buy a perfume for myself as i never put on any too. I can't stand the stupid smell of all the perfume. Well, there were 2 salesgirl drop by at our office doing promotion for the perfume. Saying that the perfume is new brand. Well i hope i did not get conned for this. They insist me and my friend here, Siti to buy them and they even lower the price from $39.90 to $19.90 plus an additional free gift of bracelet. Both of them sounds so convining and succeed to make us buy the perfume each with the free gift. There goes my $20. Never believe that i can buy them.
Will having a date today. hehehehe then tomorrow morning will be meeting the others in early morning. Hope i can wake up tomorrow...........

Feeling so tired now. Wished i am in bed sleeping. Really really tired. I cant take it anymore. I need a break. Really really need a good break. I will have to start planning now when is the best time to take my break. hehehehehehe Now July is going to be here soon. I will start planning soon. hehehehehehe
Hopefully there will not much work to be done today. There will be 2 auctions today and i am included as a helpdesk.
Met up with Moshee & Nurynn yesterday. Sit with them at Starbucks at Ct Hall with my classmates. Had a good small last minute gathering. hehehehhe
I "Cabut" from my boring class during the break. Cant really stand it. So me n my friend decided to went off. The teacher was talking all the way. Really can't stand that. She good at explaining the topic but then it was boring for us. Both of us have learn the topics but then it was included some practical. But this time around it is all theory. Thats why we are bored with it.

At last i get to blog. hehehehehe Blogger was down this morning. Could not blog anything. I was looking forward to write a lot of things.
Feeling tired lately. And i think i will fall sick soon. I hope I am not going to be or all my planned will be ruined. hmmmmm

A tiring day for me today. It is a slow day today. I realise the time really pass by so slow that i get so bored here till i dont know what to write in here. Been wanting to write a lot of things but it seems that i cant. hmmmmmm
Thanks to Herda, i get my counter online up. hehehehehehe Will add a few more things with the help of her of course. hehehehehe Thanks sis u help a lots. You make me really addicted to blogging. And soon Moshee will follow our footsteps. hahahahahhaa

Been busy lately. They been asking me to do training for their upcoming auctions. Yeah auctions. My company doing auctions too. Maybe u guys thinking what my company is dealing with. Click TradeOneAsia here to find out more about my company. It is good things that i learnt new things around here. But sometimes i just can't really stand the workload they giving me. But what to do. I got to hang on there.
Today for the first time i have to training a malay user. He was soooooo "GATAL". From what i learnt from my colleague, this fellow looks around 40 years old. And when i was about to teach him, he sounds so "MIANG" which i really cant take it. At the end of the training, he even dare to say that he will ask me for lunch or dinner if he lose. (He is going to lose out by the way. He do say that while in between the training that he will not bid much) I told my colleagues (my department) all about it and they laugh out loud saying that i should do more like this. Soon after i done the training, the old "MIANG" guy fax in all the document. Usually other people will take about an hour to fax all the confirmation document but he took it less than 15 mins. *haiz*
Will having a boring class today. Thought of skipping it and met Rif but then he sounds not interested. So me better go to class. Good luck on your NS (Army) Life Rif. Maybe we would be seeing anymore. Too bad then. If we are bound to met again, then we will one day.

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tasteful clothes
modest demands
tends to not forgive mistakes
cheerful
likes to lead but not to obey
honest and faithful partner
tends to a know-all-attitude and making decisions for others
noble-minded
generous
good sense of humor
practical

I wish i could sleep longer. Woke-up late today. Usually by 6.30am i should have get out of my bed. But today i was still lying there at 6.45. A bit rushing there when i saw the time. And the worst part was, my 2nd brother, Zaidi n my sister, Maimunah just wake up too and everyone was rushing like mad. I was last in the queue to bath. Luckily my parents has come back from holiday, or my poor sister, Andini has to do the cooking alone.
Feeling hungry too hungry. Now i am eating Big Breakfast but it seems not enough. My stomach is a bit funny u see. In one day i have to eat rice especially at night. Thats mean dinner time, i have to eat rice. If not the next day i will feel so hungry like right now. I also cant really eat spicy food. If i do, i will be sweating or have a stomach pain. But i just dont really care all this. I will still eat the spicy food and of course cut off the rice in my daily meal.

Really enjoying my weekends this time. I will try to sleep early today or tomorrow i will be very tired. Even right now i wish i am at my bed now. But need to do some stuffs first.
Met my cousins at Bedok Mrt and we went to Plaza Singapura. The place was so crowded and the place is still under renovation. Grab a bite at KFC before heading to Serangoon to our aunt's place. Went home at 7pm and surprise to see my parents were backed. She welcome us a with her nagging. hehehehe

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Had a good sleep yesterday. Wake up this morning at 10am. hehehehehe Will going out again today. This time around with my 2 little cousins. Suppose to met them yesterday but i cancel the day with them yesterday and change it to today.

Really enjoying my day today. I am really enjoy it and so do my sister, Andini. All this were plan at the last minute. We never knew what to do or where to go. Lets see what happens today. hmmmmmmmm
Met herda & Moshee at Bedok Mrt at 11am. Then head to Airport to met Herda' husband, Kamal for lunch at Popeye. Then straight to Tampines where we had fun playing games. Wandering about at Bazaar for a while before heading to Bugis where we met Moshee's Fiance to catch a movie, Bruce Almighty. The movie was a good one i shall say. A lot of laughter. Then went to Pinky's stall for dinner there. Took the new MRT from Little India. The place was so cozy and nice. Moshee and Herda wish they could take more pictures. hehehehehee We will be going there next week. Reach home exactly at 10pm. Nearly the whole day i was out with them. hehehehehe
Now my stomach is in pain after too much eating n drinking. hehehehehhehe But whatever it is, I really really enjoy my day today. Hope u guys too!!! (I like the part when we were playing the games)

hmmmm Still feeling sleepy now. Wanna sleep a bit longer but then decided not to. Me & herda waiting for our big leader to sms us to inform of the small outing we will be having today. Moshee.......wake up Moshee, wake up. hehehehehehe
Will cook & clean the house before going out later. Thats why i drag myself to wake-up this early. If not i will be still sleeping now. hehehehehee

See i told u, i will end up hurting. It hurts so much. He still carry his past with him. Still remember her. He gave me a few songs and kind of sad songs. And the more hurting part when he say that all the songs was related to him with his ex-girlfriend. I should have not tell him the truth. As i type all this i am crying. how am i regard for all this................ :(

Sleep at 2am this morning. hmmmm I came to work quite late. But luckly not all staffs are in the office yet. Thats mean i am not late. hehehehe I even sms my friend, siti saying that i am late today. In the end i came 1st before her. hehehehehhe
Do something stupid today. hmmmm yesh i think i have. And i should have not told him. Now i am regret. Arghhhhhh Yesh Rif i did actually miss u. Yesh miss u so much and i dont know why. *haiz* I know u may find it odd and crazy of me saying this to you but then this is actually i feel. *haiz* It is good to hear your voice again this morning. But i feel like crying this morning. After telling u all this, u were laughing at me n your voice change so suddenly. On my journey to work, i was keep swearing myself for being truthful to him, for telling him all this. Argggghhhhhhhh Hate myself & i really hate myself.

My parents went to Malaysia for Malaysia today till Tuesday. Fuhyooooo Enjoy!!!!!!! hehehehehe Cant sleep so log in the internet and chatting of course. ;)
I realise i am missing someone. hmmmm Why should i miss this person so much??? *haiz*

Arghhhhhhhhhh so many things need to be done today. Damn a lot of things. Stress Stress Stress. Arghhhhhhhh

Had a really good time yesterday. Nice meeting new people like Biggy, Bluerose & Nurynn. Met up at Bugis and ZamZam we went to eat. hehehehehe It been a while since i last visit that place. hmmm Still good n nice food they have there. And thanks to our Big Makan Leader, Moshee for "belanja" us. (Terima Kasih Abg Moshee) hehehehehehehe After eating there, swesens we went. The place was crowded. So the guys offered to queue up while the girls roaming at the Bugis Junction for a while. Herda insist of going to the third floor to take some pictures where she pass them out the last time. So there it goes, the 3 ladies busy taking pictures there. At the same time how i wish i have a digital camera of my own. :( Share the ice-cream with Herda.
Went back home never am i expect to eat more. Yesh i eat more food!!! I have a bit of Fried Noodles, a piece of cake and some porridge. I never thought i could eat so much. hehehehehe Well, my mum bug me to eat some as she cook it and she have put aside some of the food for me. Rather let to food to waste, i eat it. And at last i end-up sleeping at 12.00am. Now i am feeling so sleepy. Tonight there will be class. Boring class. Arghhhhhhhhh

Will be meeting Herda, Moshee, Am, Nurynn, Biggy, RaeLynn & Anissa. Will be eating at Zam Zam then go to Swesens. hmmmmm

Arghhhh this is getting a bad habit already. 3 days straight i did not have a good sleep. This is really bad. Now i am having this bad headache. I wish i could stop thinking all the unwanted things. *haiz*
I decided to write about a few of my good friends. A really good ones. Sorry to write all this in here friend, but it is just to write out my feelings of happpines to have such a good friend whom i appreciate most. I dont know how to tell you all this saying thank u. So this is the better way to do that.
The first person is a guy name Azli & currently unemployed. Too bad he is attached or i would have fallen for him. hahahahahaha He is a nice guy who helps me a lot. Once i talk to you, i feel relieved and happy as though my burden has gone. You give me advise as though like a brother advising his sister. And you are always there for me when i need to talk to someone. There is a lot of things i wanna share with u asking ure opinion but then i can't. I dont know why. Maybe i find that the things are too personal and i don't want you to get involve or know. I am shy to let u know what is happening to me. How i wish all my brothers are like u.
Another person is of course my girlfriend Siti, who currently working with me here at the same office. We have been best friend since in our secondary school life. I will tell her everything from A to Z. You are like a sister to me. You do teach me a lot too. You also give me advise, a really good advice. I will feel bad if i did not tell you what is happening in my life.
I dedicate this column to both of you. Thanks for being such a good friend to me all this while. I appreciate you guys a lot. I am sorry if i ever hurts you people as i did not intention to do that.

Feeling sooooooo sleepyyyyy again. Sleep late yesterday again and of course had difficulty in sleeping AGAIN.
Eat a lot yesterday. Came back from Masjid Kassim, my cousins drag me to eat along with them at KFC. Called 1 of my uncle to join us. hehehehehe Have a great time with them after so long never met. Will have another small gathering with them again next week. hmmmm Seems there will be a small gathering like this every Monday nites. hehehehehehe
This week, it seems that all masjid is having syarahan about "Dunia Hampir Kiamat"(The world is coming to the end) It makes me more shiver last nite after hearing it again. I realise that in life we are bound to make a lot of mistakes. A whole lot of them. Some times we make mistake without accidently or with accidently. As a muslimah, i do what should i do. I hope everyone is aware about all this.

Feels so sleepyyyyyy............. Did not have a good sleep yesterday. Not only yesterday, its kind of always. I don't know why i am having difficulty in sleeping at night. If i get to sleep, i will wake up in the middle of nights. haiz...... I think there is something in my mind that are still hanging. I not quite sure what is that as i realise there are a lot of things in my mind now. Damn a lot of things. Haiz.....
The weather is cold today. Wish i could sleep a bit longer.

My third Brother besday is coming. It will be this week but till now my sisters & I could not decide what to buy for him. My sister decided to give him a perfume but i am not quite agree with her choice. Thought of buying him some shirts or any clothing but it seems the same kind of gift like last year. hmmmmm I think i will stick to my sister idea. Giving him a perfume. Let my sister decide which brand is the best.
hmmmm Got no choice today. Have to go out no matter what happens. Today is the only day i am free and the only day to buy the gift.

Boring Saturday today. Wake-up damn late. Nearly 10am. Sleep late yesterdat at 12.30am after watching the Hindustan movis at Suria channel with my sister,Andini. Watch it before but it is fun to watch all over again. U can't watch hindi movie once as it will not satisfied u once. hehehehehe This is my own opinion okies. Dont have to agree with me. I dont know why i am addicted to Hindi movies although i know they have a lot of fake or bluff fighting scences but it seems so good to watch those movies a few times.
Moshee asked whether wanna catch a movie on "Finding Nemo" today. But i think i have to skip that. Sorry Moshee did not inform you. My younger sister, Andini, have a remedial today and i am lazy to go out today especially without her. Use to went out with her and it will be a odd to be without her today. So next time we will if there is more great movies coming okies. We will plan out 1 day with a few more people joining. Will be great i say to you. hehehehehehe
Cook Nasi lemak today. Instead of using Fried fish, my mum ask me to fry the chicken.
Arghhhh feel so bored..........................

Feeling so tired today. My left arm seems so in pain & all thanks to the EVIL women yesterday for making me so stressful and chase all the work at the last minute. Arghhhh i dont feel quite easy with this pain aching.
The class yesterday was quite okies. But still a boring class overall.
Luckliy my friend cancel our meeting today. I guess i will went back straight home or pop up at my aunt's place. Will decide all that later depends on my mood.
Feeling miserable lately. With this pain on my left arm, work with this EVIL women, my mum nagging and a lots more. I think i really need a break. A really-really GOOD break.

Arghhhhh so stressful!!!!! This women is so damn unpatient. I hate her and i hate her so muchhhhhhhh. So gave me this junk of work at the last minute and expect me to finish up so soon. Because of this so stressful and unpatient things, my hand is in pain now. Really2 in pain. Hate to be in this situation.
Because of this EVIL women i am late meeting with Herda, RaeLynn, Khair, Moshee and his 'tunang', Azlin (correct me if i am wrong). By the way, nice meeting u guys again. But to tell the truth people. I am still hungry altough after eating Sweet and sour chicken hot plate. hehehehehe I think later i will have to eat more before going to my class. hmmm what shaill i have? hmmm
My deparment, Operations cant wait to get me out of the sourcing department. They need me to do the customer services side. Now i am helping out to do the sourcing team before they get a new worker. That evil women suppose to start interviewing people but till now she keep panding it. Damn her man. She expects us to finish our job early but she herself is pending doing them. I hate this kind of people. Only think their self. Never see themself in a mirror. haiz...... Got to bear with this knid of attitude for another 2 or 3 weeks before they really get a new people. haiz................

I just read Naqia's blog and realise how true that is. It seems a trend nowadays that people are getting engaged or married early. And people seems to ask u alot especially if u are still single like me. I am not worried at all but it seems they are worried for me. Come on people why in a rush. I know what is good and bad in my life. Who doesn't want to get married and settle down to have family? Who doesn't want a relationship? Of course Everyone wants it. It just a matter of time. For me i am still young and there seems a lot of things need to be done before i am married. Yeah it is true that things also can be done once u are married but i think that will be different thing already.
Yesterday 2 people were talking to me about this. Relationship. One of my penpal from Pakistan asking me when will i have a relationship with a guy, having boyfriend. I told him all this will happens one day if decided by ALLAH my life is long. Furthermore, i think i am tight with my life now and seems that there will be no time for all this. He was kind of unhappy with my answer and give me a few advise that i been hearing a lot. (We were chatting at Yahoo messenger of course) Then at night, a good guy friend of mine talk the same thing. He advising me the same thing. Asking me to find a boyfriend soon. What is happening here. It makes me feel annoyed sometimes.

hmmm my heads still in a pain. hopefully does not turn worst later. I think i been thinking too much lately thats y my head has this pain. haiz...... I am tired and sleepy now. Too many dateline given to me. The more pressure i feel now.
On my way to work this morning, i was thinking and wondering about how my life has been. How people around me react to my daily life and how it effect me and them. hmmmm Tough things to think early morning. I just wish i am invisible to everyone or just dissappear!!!! So that i would not be a burden to anyone. I think i am too sad and to frustated with certain people that lead me to this kind of thinking. It is sad when no ones really care about u n treat u as though u are invisible. It is really frustated also to get people keep lieing to u and keep saying bad things about u. haiz..... I guess too many things happens lately. Try to ignore all this factor but it seems to bug me again and again.
Talk to a close friend of mine. I told him that i been having bad headache and need a rest so i really cant talk to him. To make me laugh and joke of it, he say maybe i am pregnant and i should see a doctor. I was laughing madly and keep saying him crazy and childish to have that thinking. I told him that if his girlfriend having the same kind then that means she is also pregnant then and he burst out loud laughing. Never believe guys of his age still has that thinking. I just feel pressure and tired ah.
Today will be having a new lesson for my class after 2 weeks holiday. hmmmm Who is the next teacher now? Hope that teacher not a boring type of person or else........

My head still in pains. I try to sleep but i can't. Arghhhhh

Yesterday, i can't log in to blog. And i dont know why is that. Got a lot of this to write yesterday. Well, today i shall write watever happens yesterday.
I had a bad headache again. It happens yesterday. And now, it still hurts. Arghhhhhhh The sad thing is nobody at home really cares when i complain of my head. They just ignore and take it never heard what am i saying. Really sad as my heads was so in pain that i wish i could knock it on the wall.
Yesterday, me n my 2 sisters decided to go for an outing. After have given so many choices, we decided to window shopping at Orchard. Well, it is kind of boring cause my sister, Maimunah (or ana we called her) was not a very good buddy to go out with. She kept quite all the time and keep sms her boyfriend. She damn boring man. I just stick my younger sister, Andini all the way. Well this time around no more shopping. hehehehe Well i guess i have done quite a lot of shopping last time. So now no more. Stop or i will have to fast for my meal. hehehehehehe
I thought of going to starbucks or coffee bean to teach my younger sister what to eat there. So that in future people would not laugh at her for have not trying any drinks or food there. And this Ana tell us to go to airport where her boyfriend working at the coffee bean where we can get free food. So we all agreed and proceed our way there. But after the long way, we have to wait for her boyfriend for nearly 10 mins and end up i got to pay for the food. I was really frustated as i thought we will be given free food but then. arghhhhh I am angry with her for making me n andini go long way and end up pay for the food. It is good we just eat somewhere at the orchard there. Hate her. All she thinks is herself.
Me and her has a very different attitude. Kind of the opposite of me. Well, she is the type of hot-tempered person while i am not. Most of the things are opposite. We always quarrel. And the sad thing is that my family especially my mum would back her up. Sometimes i am sad really2 sad if all thats happens. People always say that me as a big sister is a good thing. Where i can just relax and let my sisters do all the work. But in my case, it is the other way round.
Nevermind all that, i keep reminding myself that watever i learnt or force to do, is for my own benefit. Just take watever it is as part of life where i have to face it

Will be going to the wediing today at Yishun. Thought of going out with my 3rf brother and my younger sister but then it was cancel as my brother feels lazy at the last minute. So now here i am facing the PC writing my blog and waiting for the time to go out later. So bored........ Wanna sleep but scare that i will wake up late later.
For the first time, I feel boring while chatting IRC today. I never find it so bored till today. hmmmm Thats mean something is happening to me here. hmmmmm

Why people take u for granted??? Once they want anything from, they will talk nicely, care for u and say sorry. But once they doesn't want u, they will say bad things about u, leave u or even critisize u. What do u people take me for??? I hate this kind of people. They are really annoying sometimes. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
And 1 more thing i hate is tat people tend to lie to me alot. They tend to keep things away. I hate tat. really really hate tat.

A lot things need to be done today. So stressful!!!!! I think i will bring back some of my work home. If not i will never get to finish up all this stupid stuffs.

I thought of stopping blogging for a while but i really can't. I keep wondering what should i type in here. What should i say.
There's seem a lot of things to type about. Release all the tension that i have in my mind by writing but i find it to personal but then i don't think it is too personal.
I find that i have not been myself lately. Unwanted things happens and i don't know whether i have made the right decision, right reasons, right choice or none of it. arghhhhhhhhh Like Moshee says before, how he wish he could be a 10 year old kid where these small kids got nothing to think of except their study. Well Moshee, I agree with u on that. I just wish it do happens but i know it would not be. It will only happens when u are daydreaming or remember your past.
People may wondering that how come i am so down when all they saw is a cheerful gal who likes to smiles and talk non-stop sometimes. Well, i don't like to show people that i am sad, boring or even tired. I do complain once in a while but I try not to.
Chat with a gal at IRC yesterday. She was complaining y cant she be happy like me. (she say my pictures and say all this) I told her that in order to make your life happy, be truth to yourself and be yourself. Dont grumble for no reasons or complain. U got the face life in a positive ways not negative. Same goes to me too. I always do that but is just that once awhile i will be totally down n think all the negative ways. Thats happens when i am really2 down. People come and go in your life. Some make a good influence and some may be a bad one for u. Some may give u support, care, love while some may just dump, ignore or hate u. Just be yourself except watever people say about u.
Isn't life complicated. Too much complicated. Thats LIFE!!!!!!!

Yeshhhhhhh yesterday was my last paper. hmmmm feel good that is has end but sad because i did not really prepared the exam quite well this time around. *haiz*
A lot of things happens lately. I can't sleep again yesterday. At last i cry myself out thinking about what happens lately. It is good to cry after so long i never do tat. Feel relieve but still it hurts me so much. Try not to think about all this but......
Will be meeting a few bloggers today. I am not sure who but I know Herda & Moshee will be there.

So sleepy today...... Wish i could sleep some more. zzzzzzz
Sleep late yesterday as i chat in IRC.
Been having bad headache again. arghhhhhhhh

Heard a lot of nagging today. Quite a lot.
Went to the wedding today. I am surprise that her mom still remember me after such long time never visit her.
Busy cleaning my bedroom. Has been ignoring the room for a while now. Everything was in a mess before today and now all is in place now, clean and fresh and more nicer, much better i say. hehehehe
Boring day for me today i guess.

Had a bad headache yesterday. Eat 2 panadol and straight went to sleep at 11.30pm after coming back from syarahan at Masjid Muhammadiyah. Woke up this morning feeling a bit dizzy.
Will be going to Wedding this afternoon at 2pm. Maybe drop by at Bedok Interchange to buy some things. hmmmm I was wondering should i or shouldn't i buy contact lens. hmmmmmm