I am still tired although sleep early yesterday. I think i went to bed around 9 plus. Wanted to watch a few show but too tired. In the end, i sleep while watching tv. Went Jalan Raya for the 3rd times yesterday with parents & sis Ana. yeah my 3rd times although i took the whole week off. Meaning i only went on 1st, 2nd & 6th day of raya only. Can't bother to do the visiting as mum busy sending wedding invitations to alot of people. And ppl keep asking when is my turn. Quite piss off and tired to reply them the same old answer again and again.


Back to work today after a week on leave. And all my 3 colleagues of my team on MC today. Yes all 3 of them today. I nearly took an MC today. But after missing work so long, i decided not too. If i really took, mt team will be down the whole day of today. hehehehehe....


I been feeling down for the past few days. Haiz...Been sensitive lately. Try to control but seems difficult especially if a few things keep happening again and again. haiz...

Selamat Hari Raya semua...Hope it is not too late. Anyway it is the 3rd day of raya and i am enjoying my day at home. No work till friday. Will be back to office only on Monday. How i wish i could be like this always. :) :) :)

I blog during the weekends but seems blogger got problem. So i can't save watever i am writing on that day. After thinking over the weekends, i decided not to take the new job offer. Decided to stay put for a few months maybe before decided to look again.


My general manager seems very happy and so do a few of my colleagues. They nearly got heart attack when i told them what happen. hehehehhehe When they knew my decision, they are happy with it. :) I stay not only because of them. But simply i enjoy some of the work i am doing now. Which i can proudly say, I learnt a lot from there... And part of me still do not wanna leave as i wanna learn more. But i did mention to them that i need help with my work as i seems to overload most of the time. I have 2 projects and seem not finish most of the time. Quite frustrated when you know that you can't finish all these things. Hopefully they are looking into that...


Raya is tomorrow. Alhamdulilah everything well prepared. Done a lot of preparation for the last few days. Then it will be busy for my 3rd brother's wedding. InsyALLAH will be in 3 weeks time. :) :) :)

Had a great day yesterday. Went to met a few old friends whom i know online. Met Hazrin and her tunang (lupa lak nama dia) then Ernie and husband, Hisham. It been a while we all met up. We do a lot of catch with each other. And it is good to met them again. Miss them so much. Still remember our good old days. :) :) :)


Btw i went to interview on Monday. And it was my first time being interviewed by a malay guy. And kind of shock as he knew a few old people at my current company. The people he knew have long left the company when i am still new there. So kind of not knowing them well enough. At least they still say hi whenever saw me outside. And during the interview, he test me out a few mathematical questions which i was not prepared actually. I answered him wrongly for 2 questions but at least he mention that i give a try rather than just give up. He did that as he find from my certificate that my Maths was bad. During the interview, he did say things in jokely mannner which make me comfortable in the conversation and as though i knew him quite well. And never did i thought they call me immediately the next day for 2nd interview. The 2nd interview was with 2 ladies whom i will be working with. Everything went well till they say that they kind of impress with me and would like to hired me. But they do have some concern about a few things. Which i totally agreed with them and they will gladly love to help me out on this. Hopefully they will be doing willingly instead just scold n etc...InsyALLAH...


I will be giving my tender letter today. Kind of nervous actually. Cause i really believe they will pester me to stay which i dont think i will consider that. When i look for new job, i am determine to change as the current work make me frustrated most of the time. Seems no one listening to my problem or difficulties. So best to leave before things out of hand. It will be sad as i simply love some ppl there. It have been 5 yrs actually. And it was my first job eversince i graduate from ITE. Hope the new job gives me better opportunity and of course gain more experience. InsyALLAH...

I am in Hari Raya mood already. We just started to make some kuih. We have made 3 types as at today. Maybe will make at least 1 type each day. Weekends will be busy packing the "Berkat" for Bro Jaya's wedding next month. It will be on 19 November. If we did not do it this weekend, it will be rushing as we will be busy inviting ppl for the wedding.


Went to Geylang on Friday nite with my 2 sistas n Nelly. After that we met my parents who joined us after Solat Terawih. We continue shopping till 12.30am and it kind of shock actually. My sister, Ana have told my mum that it is past 11 and it is best to go home and all she reply us is "Hey the nite is still early u know." We all were so shock to her that. Mum usually the one will make noise asking us to go home but not that day. hehehehehehe But i do enjoy myself that day. Especially with my best friend, nelly. :) :) :) Along the way, we met 4 to 5 old sch friends there. Nice meeting them all....


Will be having a few iftar for these few days. Shall met my few friends tomorrow. Then met Him on Thursday. :) May caught movie together or just jalan2 at Bazaar. Hmmm have not fully decide yet. Just hope i can be back at 5.30 sharp for the next few days. Provided not much work too. InsyALLAH....

I am feeling so down. Feeling so sad. Dissapointed. Anger and lots more i guess. Haiz...I know i am the fattest, ugliest, horrible, blur, stupid, unglamour and etc child you 2 ever have. I also get the blame after certain things happen. And most of the time i don't get any respect from other siblings due to all these. When i fight for my rights, no one come to my rescue. I still get the blame at the end of the day. So most of the time, i just keep to myself which is what i been doing most of the time. Haiz...It hurts a lot when no one is by your side when you need someone. You tend to rely someone outside the family which tend to understand you more than your own.


Sometimes i just hate my life now. It makes me so low. I feel so useless. But knowing that things happen for a reasons...InsyALLAH it will be better in future maybe...


Work as usual been packed with a lot of things. Latest is met Ebay's ppl to learn their process. Yes the Ebay.com that in the website. Interesting actually and motivate me wanna sell online but i need a Credit Card before i can start which i dont have any. :( And i will be going to Women's Changi Prison next week to teach a few ppl about Ebay's process. hmmm It will be my first time there. Shall blog more on this next week after the visiting. InsyALLAH...


Alhamdulilah the busy work make me forget a bit of my personal problems...I still feel sad actually. Haiz...All i have is patience...

Feeling so tired. Went some shopping at Bedok Interchange with Andini. Simply bought 2 pair of shoes. One for work and another for raya. Looking for a bag but couldn't get nicer ones at bedok. Maybe next time at other place then....


Yesterday was so crowded. Everyone sits together at the dining table. Alhamdulilah with the big table we have now, manage to fit in everyone. Of course we have to sit closely. :) :) :) But mum say next week, all of us will be sitting below together. It will be much better. hehehehehe InsyALLAH....