I went to see the doctor yesteday. My stomach suddenly cramp and i can't stand it. So after work i went to go to my family doctor and i wait nearly 1 hour to see her. A lot of the patients are workers from nearby factory. She gave me 6 different kinds of medicine which i am so shock. She claim that i might have gastric. I dont remember skipping my meals or eat late...But whatever it is, i hope to get well soon.....I get an MC today but i decide not to use it....Eric is on leave and no one can really helps my work except him. Maybe i take half day or what....Well depends on the situation later. All i know, i have a few things that need to be settle ASAP by today.


He make me shock yesterday by asking me to join him for Dinner with his colleague. Well, he dont like anyone to met us outside for now...I agree with that too. I prefer we dont plan to met any of our friends yet for now and yet he ask me to join him. At first i am shock but after a while, i feel happy as he wants to introduce me willingly to his friends. If happen we saw any of our friends outside then we can't say anything. Well, it happens twice that we saw his friend and he's not happy with it. Only Farij saw him before and he say that it will not be counted. So now is 2 (for him) - 0 (for me). Well, i think i only introduce him after 3 or 6 months down the road in future but not for now. It may sound weird but i find it good. Well at least if things not working out, ppl will not ask a lot of things...Just hope the best....InsyALLAH...


Will be busy for the next 2 days.....Hope it will be a great weekends. InsyALLAH...

I am feeling a bit better. My cough n flu is getting lesser. Alhamdulilah....


My colleague, Eric, will be on leave today n tomorrow. Hopefully not much work need to be done....At last, he taking sometime off. He been work and work and have not finish up his leave till now. He aiming to take long leave but new projects keep coming up. He is always involved in it. Sometimes when he is sick n on MC, he will still think and come to work. And i always nag at him for being too workaholic. His birthday is this Saturday and i still could not find prefect gift for him... It is always difficult to look for guy's gift.....


Last minute, Ana cancel the plan yesterday night. I also cancel the plan with Andini and in the end i met him up. Took my Hp Nokia 7260 at SGH. Then head to Bugis to look for my dad's gift and i failed to find any. Ana managed to get the gift at Yishun. Head to Suntec with him for Dinner at Swenson there. After walking around, we head to Mustaffa Centre to look for his new shoe. He managed to get 1 instead of 2 pairs.


Might be going to Mak Rah's place tonight. Have not decide yet but maybe will be going there. Miss her already and it been 2 weeks, i have not visited her...

Feeling so tired and weak still....Haiz....Did not sleep well yesterday night. I feel that my left ear is blocked. Or whatever you called it. My voice is still not so good.....


Had a disagreement with him yesterday. Good thing we talked things out. Yeah in relationship with anyone, we need to talk things out. No matter how bad or good the things is. We have to let each other knew what our opinion and and whatever negative or positive thinking. From there we get to know each other better. Just hope things will be better despite whatever have happen lately....InsyALLAH....


Will be taking my new Hp Today. :) :) :) I am very very excited about it. Well, i did not really aim for this phone but the offer is too resisted to be miss. Ana have been hoping to have it but in the end i have it first before her. After that, will b be meeting Ana & Andini at Bugis to buy my dad's gift as his Birthday will be this Friday. Been looking around last weekend but could not decide anything yet till now. Well, looks like it will be clothes for him again this year....

I am still weak today. Still having this flu n coughing....Wish i could sleep longer....Thought of seeing the doctor but i don't feel like going. Don't know why... :( :( :(


Met him yesterday after a week did not met up. We went to our usual place before headed to Beach Road for Dinner. Something bad happen that make him really mad at me too. We asked for Mee Goreng & Nasi Goreng from the Indian Foodstall. First the guy came with the wrong food after 10 mins then we wait for more than 30 mins. He suggest we go other place or just order any other food. But i told him just to wait patiently. Till he really mad, i just told him, that we better walked off. In the end, we went home without any Dinner. :( :( :( Well, he still angry with me now... Just hope he cool down soon.....InsyALLAH.....


I am feeling so down today. Actually since yesterday night. After the incidence, i keep questioning myself why n what n etc. Am i stubborn? Am i boring? Am i stupid? Am i too soft? And a lot more question that i keep asking myself. I looked back how my life have been. I just feel so lonely these few days and most of the time. I am sick down with flu n cough, no one in the family bother to ask, how am i? Never ask why never go see doctor and etc. I may sound to be childish but that's me. I need some attention but i feels that i don't have that since young. I have to learn to be independent since young. As young as 10 years old i think. I still remember when i was that age, i have to do the cooking alone with anyone help. Everyone critise me for being bad cooker at that time. A lot of my friends were enjoying their childhood while i have to do all the housework. Yeah it benefits me but i lost all my previous time just to help around and now i feels that i am a lousy person. I am too soft. Just follow whatever instructions given and never fight it back. haiz....Maybe what ever happens had it own reasons. I dont see it now but who know in future... InsyALLAH....

I am feeling so tired n weak. Yeah i am at work now despite feeling sick. :(


Went to Client's place at Changi Cargo this morning with my colleague. He fetch me up at Tanah Merah Mrt Station before proceeding to Changi. At there, met a few ppl that i been talking to with. Kind of weird meeting them as i used to talk to them only throght phone. Feel so awkward after that. Especially to 1 of the guy as he will flirt at time. Well, work still be work. Just take that kind of conversation for fun and laughter. :) :) :) Bad thing i was coughing all the way. My eyes even feeling watering. Luckliy one of them offer me sweet and i feel so good after that.


Banquet just open at Harbourfront last week. Had Lunch there with a few of my collegues. Looks like more choices of food are here at Harbourfront. We shall wait for new Fast Food if possible. :) :) :) Well, i just had simple Fishball Soup Noodle due to my pain in my throat. Never mind, there will be other days to eat good food there. But the choices is not as much as at China Square located near the old office there.


Might be meeting him tonight. Not sure where we will be going.....

A few days i did not blog anything. Too much work. Busy with a lot of phone calls and other things too. And the bad thing, i been feeling sick for the past few days. Saturday was worst. I lost my voice. Yeah sore throat!!! Plus with blocked nose and cough. My body is aching too...


Thought of resting at home on Saturday but was "force" to go to Woodlands for the engagement ceremony of my cousin beside my dad. Force myself to go and all i did was just sit around and play games on the borrowed hp. Went over to the gal's side and be a camera woman for that day. (Too lazy to upload now. InsyALLAh will upload it up soon)


Both my parents get a new Hp. New first coloured hp. As usual my dad feel so proud of the phone. (Org tua katakan) hehehehehehehe I will be getting a new Hp with a new number too. Yeah i always change phone and number after 2 years after the contract ends. I just had this habit of changing so that i can totally ignore a few ppl. Yeah i may sound bad but i think things that i dont like is better be forget.


Will be out to collect my hp later. Then maybe go "jln2" at Tampiness Mall with my 2 sistas n Bro Jaya. Thought of meeting him but he is too lazy to go out. Might be meeting him tomorrow or wednesday. Miss him already....


Just hope i will get better tomorrow. InsyALLAH...Will be meeting a customer tomorrow morning with my colleague at Changi. Been talking to them on the phone regarding work and have not met them before.

hmmm feeling so down today. I did not sleep well yesterday. I even cry nearly the whole night. Feeling so dissapointed with a lot of things. Especially with him. It it worst when other things came together at the same time. Haiz... Feeling confused, frustrated and a lot more.... Haiz....

Early morning he make me piss off for nothing. He keep repeating the same old topic which we have discuss some time ago. We even have agree something on it and now he bring it up again!!! Even worst when i saw something that i dont think i did and it is more worst when someone use my name!!! What a bad thing to start off with....


I am feeling frustrated, sad n dissapointed for now...I been crying since yesterday...But i still not feeling better....I think i need to cry more...

Had a great date yesterday with him. We met up around 3 plus at Bugis. Dont know where and what to do we head to Suntec where we had late Lunch at Pizza Hut. Then walked around from Suntec to Millenia Walk then Marina where we decided to watch movie. Our 1st movie together. We watch "Guess Who" and it was awesome. Enjoyed it so much as we had a good laugh. By then it was nearly 9.30 and we rushed home. As usual, mum nags as i am home late. Hehehehe First time going out from 3pm to 9.30pm and good thing she nags just for a while only. Little Aeisyah keeps playing with all although she is sick. She is having flu and she can remember all of us by names. She will once in a while call me LiLi or LaLa. Yeah her favourite toy for now.


My pak long came with the family. All just wake up and have not bath when they reached here. hehehehe Just imagine how rushing all of us...They bring a few good news. My 2 cousins will get married soon in August. My beloved cousin, Nazrul, will be getting engaged by next month and married together with his brother bu August. I was feeling sad and dissapointed....Couldn't believe what i heard today. I even cry after that. I dont know how to say but i am totally sad...I knew this will happen sooner or later....All i can say, May he have a good life with her...InsyALLAH...


Looks like 2 of my same age cousins are engaged and will be getting married soon. Looks like everyone will be waiting for my time soon....Arghhhh I bet all will ask when will be my turn when we all met up......This is going to be annoying...

Looks like blogging is starting to get famous with a lot of ppl. A few site having this at their site. Example like Friendster and Anakmelayu. I think i will still prefer Blogger. Get used to it already and simple like to create my own site here. :) :) :)


Today wake up quite late. I think nearly 11am. I woke up earlier b4 that but continue sleep. Usually by 10 i will woke up but today i overshot to nearly at 11am. Break record betul!!!! hehehehehe Luckily mum quite ok mood today if not she will be nagging all the way. She out to market and her i am in front of net and have not bath yet. heheheheh Mampus mak aku balik nanti kelam kabut. hehehehehe


Might be meeting him today. He wants to tell what is his decision about changing job. Well i think he will get the new offer that came to him. From medical line to construction line. hmmm a bit jump but he wants to try new things and of course due to better paid...

I am feeling so damn sleepy now. Wish i could sleep more longer....Haiz....


Met Supinah yesterday finally after so long plans keep cancel at the last minute. Too bad Nelly did join us due to work n stuffs. She the one earger to met up and at the last minute she always did not turn up. Haiz....Well manage to catch up things with Supinah...We met up at Long John Silver for our dinner and spent the next 2 hours talking there. Finally get to eat the hot & spicy chicken meal. It was not a good choice. I find the food to be salty n not spicy at all.


Talk to him till late morning. A lot of things we discuss. Haiz....Problems will always be a problems...

I am feeling so sleepy n tired. Sleep quite late yesterday and the previous nite too. For the past few days, i been sleeping in the bus while my journey to work. I seldom do that only once in a while i will sleep if i am too tired. Looks like i am really really tired as i been sleeping in the bus of this whole week. That is not a good sign....


Went to Mak Rah home yesterday. As usual we talked a lot of things. :) :) :) I love talking to her as she gave a lot of good tips and advise too. I left her home at nearly 11pm. My mum as usual will be nagging as i went home late....


Today a group of Japanase ppl are coming over to our office. So yesterday was a busy day with cleaning up. They even buy a few headset for us to wear. hehehehe They been saying that we should buy the headset long time ago but never brought it till yesterday. So starting today onwards, i will be using my headset to answer phone which i think is good. I can do other things while talking....hehehhehe


Might be meeting my 2 gfs tonight. :) Miss them so much already. It been a few month backs we met so hope tonight will be a good meeting. InsyALLAH :) :) :)

I am so sleepy today. Wish i could sleep longer....And worst my stomach is in pain... Too much eating i guess....


Met him after work. He pick me up and off we went to Parkway. Had dinner at Banquet then we walked around the shopping centre before we went to sit near the beach. Had a good talk with him especially about our feelings towards each other. It's kind of good thing that we talked things out. Getting more and more to know about each other. Some of the words he say kind of hurt me and dissapointed me but i feels good after a while. At least he talks about it directly face to face rather than just keep quiet about it or just over the phone. Yeah we are taking things slowly...We are together but we are still in the process of knowing more about each other. Well just hope things are working out well for both of us....InsyALLAH...


Work is so damn busy yesterday. Even time flies so fast that i feels that the clock should go more slower. Everything were rushing yesterday. Alhamdulilah, i finish a lot of things yesterday....

I am feeling so tired today. My left feet having cramp for the past few days. I can't bend much and feels pain a lot. Andini help to massage a few times but it seems does not work much....


Friday, the test is quite ok. During the trial test my score keep appering between 70 to 80%. Overall it is fail but during the test itself, i am confident that i did it but 50% of me not confident so let's just wait for the results....


Alhamdulilah Bro Jaya's engagement went well...It was simple and sweet event. We went over at Bro Zaki's place on Saturday and eat late lunch there. Had a lot of food that day. Then went over to the gal's place after Mahgrib. They will be engaged maybe in 3 years or less till both of them are fully ready. Went back to Bro Zaki's home at nearly 9.30pm and by then everyone is dead tired. We help Kak Tini clean the kitchen before all went home.


Went to met him yesterday. Had a great day with him too. I was too tired but after a few days not meeting, we began to miss each other so we arrange for the meeting at the last minute. He pick me up near my flat and off to East Coast by his bike. Spent nearly 3 hrs there. Then drop by at East Coast food centre where i am surprise to met Bro Farij there. He was helping out there at last minute. Never expect that to happen. I thought of introducing him to my siblings maybe after 6 months from now but it seems like Bro Farij have met him first. Well, we will c how things between me and him. If it work up after this 6 month, i will start introducing a few ppl that are close to me first before my parents. InsyALLAH....

I will be taking half day together. Will be taking Final Theory today. Hope i can make it this time around. InsyALLAH....The test will be at 6.30pm but there will be 2 trial test for me to try out later. Will be leaving the office soon at 2pm as the first test will only start at 4pm.


Tonight will be busy to prepare a few things to bring over to Bro Zaki's home tomorrow. Will do the cooking there. So might be going out early morning to market with parents to buy all the things needed. Ana & Andini will be sleeping over there. I prefer staying at home as there is no better place than your own bedroom. :) :) :)


Work been quite busy lately. Too many issues on delivery....Luckily i finish half the monthly reports. Left 1 more reports that need to be done ASAP by next week. InsyALLAH will finish by Monday...

I feel hurt when u say "Sorry No Cure". Yeah i lie about my past and u seems can't accept my reasons for that. Can't i just hide my past and forget all about it??? I dont need my past...What i need is now n future...Past is always horrible and good to forget and leave it unknown. But past makes me a better person as i am now (I hope). Well u still can't accept the truth, please leave me now and go far away before u hurt me even more...

I am feeling shivering the whole of last night. Suddenly have fever yesterday. Maybe dut to very shock and scared. Something happens yesterday that i dont know how n what to say....I just hope it will not happens again... InsyALLAH....

Feeling so so tired. Wish i could sleep longer. Yeah thanks to midnight calls from a friend of mine....Well at least i enjoy the conversation that we have. :) :) :) So no regret so i think i should not be complaining....


Alhamdulilah i am fasting yesterday and were suppose to do it today but someone force to have lunch with him. So no choice have to break my fast for today. InsyALLAH will continue tomorrow. Went for an early lunch with him. For the first time, i went out early for lunch. Luckily boss was not around and ppl not asking too much...Phew....


Will be meeting a few customer tomorrow. Last minute i was pull in to go with my colleague, Eric. Well, at least i can get out of office during office hours. :) Hope to get night sleep tonigh or i will look bad tomorrow....InsyALLAH...

Sleep late again which is around 1 plus then i went to sleep. Talk to a guy whom i find interesting. It was a nice conversation and i simply enjoyed it. :) :) :) We share the same interest maybe and it makes us click right away. His birthday happens to be a day before mine. Both of us were so shocked. We are the same zodiac. No wonder we can click up so well. Hope i did not sleep again tonight or i will have difficulty waking up tomorrow for work...


Looks like preparation for Bro Jaya's engagement went well. We will spent the whole day at Bro Zaki's home which we will have lunch and dinner there before going over to the gal's side. Yesterday Mum & Kak Tini discuss what to cook on that day. We will went over to her place quite early to help to do the cooking. InsyALLAH will took a lot of pictures and both my parents told that i will be in-charge to take the pictures....

I am so so tired and sleepy but i could not get myself a sleep now. Sleep at 2.30am this morning and woke up around 9 plus.. Talk to a friend and we have this debate conversation about married and "Tudung" Gals. He says a lot of things about it. Well he is telling me what he see in the public and his point of view. All i can tell him, as long it doesn't effect him then let them be...


Went to Geylang with my 2 sisters. Buy some tudungs and some kain that me wanna send to "tempah" to make Baju Kurung. Then went to Bugis for window shopping. I brought 2 sling bag.

My laptop had virus and spyware. Yeterday my colleague till 11pm to help me clear all the unwanted things. But she still need more times to clear a few things. :( :( :( i can't read emails from my normal Microsoft Outlook. I need to access to the net and check my emails there. Good thing not much work to do. All i do most today is helping Hafiedzah with her invoices. A lot of invoices that need to be clear ASAP if not she having problems finishing them in future.


Had a fight with Farij. He really piss all of us. Making stupid2 things after one another. First he do POSB card without my mum knowledge and nearly finish all his savings. Then now, he get fixed line instead using pre-paid card. And he owe singtel nearly $650!!! And more worst he use his friend's mum name to get the line. Wat the heck is he thinking??? Yesterday i really mad at him. I check his bills and run through what he been doing with so much. He download a lot and use GPRS a lot too. Wasting money for nothing. Stupid of him. He work part-time and all his money wasted for nothing. I nearly slap him yesterday for being rude to me. Luckily my parents are around. Bro Jaya were not around so i took control yesterday. I told Bro Jaya about it this morning and Farij will get another lecture from him. farij is really getting out of hand and really annoying us. My parents having hard time now. I don't know what will happen if he went to Poly in June. I am scare that he will get more addicted from his school mate in future. Just hope nothing of such things happen... InsyALLAH....


Had a gd sleep yesterday. I hope to get another good sleep today...InsyALLAH....