I am feeling so so tired today. Still did not get good sleep yesterday. I simply don't know why. :( :( :(


Alhamdulilah a few of my pending work is done. Left a few follow up that need to be done. Hope to get all settle before end of April. InsyALLAH...

Looks like i am not the only one sick in the office. A few of them are still on MC since yesterday. Some also just came back like me from MC. The sick season is here again. A lot of coughing and sneezing can be heard. Looks like the germs can spread out easily now. My body is aching after not getting a good night sleep yesterday. I only sleep for a few hours only. Did not know why is that. :( :( :( I hope to get an early good sleep tonight or my body will be more worst tomorrow. InsyALLAH...


My laptop have virus!!! It kind of frustrated as it keep hang earlier. My collegue help out to make it easy for me to use before she will do some cleaning later after work. If she do it now, i can't use this machine and it will effect my work. That is more worst. Hopefully by tomorrow, things will be better...InsyALLAH...


Too many issues that need my follow up. Alhamdulilah now is almost done for all issues....


Bro Jaya will get engaged in 2 weeks time. :) :) :) We will spent the day at Bro Zaki's home that day before went over to the gal's side. The occasion will be just among our family members only. Bro Jaya always say that i should get married before him and looks like he will be in the line first before me...hehehehehehe Whatever it is we all like his gf to be our family members soon. ;)

I did not sleep the whole day today. Too busy with chatting at MIRC. It been quite a while since i last chat in there...hmmm i think a year ago or is it a few months back...hmmm Don't seem remember but i knew it been quite a while back...It is fun to met a few reqular chatters....Miss the old days there...


Get to know a few ppl there. Looks like my bill will increase again this month due to the sms send and calls...


Tomorrow will be back to work. Suddenly feels lazy about it...How i wish i did not work for at least 1 week or more....Ni ah kes dah 2 hari tak keje....asik kat umah aje....


I think i will take a good bath and get some nap....Hopefully i can get some sleep later...My body feels tired but my eyes will not shut....

I am on MC for today n tomorrow. Fall sick so suddenly yesterday. Been sneezing the whole day of yesterday. By the night time, me started to have block nose and chest pain. I eat the medicine that i get the last time and sleep early. But when woke up this morning, the pain is so strong and decide to see doctor. She say it is due to muscle pain. I should come back again next 2 or 3 weeks to do another check up. My pressure also increase a bit more than usual. Maybe the tension of pain making it increase. Just took my medicine and will sleep after sending out a few emails to my colleague. I bring back my laptop and thats why i need to check once in a while...

Lazily around doing some revision and watching Hindi movie earlier on Central. It makes me cry!!! A sad movie is all i can say... I am a cry baby. Will cry easily... Cry simple things... Cry after giving my siblings a good scolding... Cry when i get nagging for no reasons... Cry when i get blamed for nothing... Cry when my siblings do not show any respects... Cry when ppl seems doesn't care... Cry for everything... That's how i let go my anger, sadness & happiness most of the times...


InsyALLAH i will start fasting tomorrow. To pay back whatever i miss last Ramadhan. 8 days to repay then insyALLAh continue to fast maybe 1 or 2 week more just in case if miss any old ones. Will see how my health is... A lot of time to do before new ramadhan came but it is better to do early or you simply will forgets...


Manage to pay all bills and settle a few things that need to pay. Gets a save a bit more this month. InsyALLAh will saves up more if i am fasting...Will need to use some of the savings for my study in future so better prepare some before i enrol. Thought of finishing my ITE exams by end of this year before i enrol for diploma. InsyALLAh all will take place as plan...

Had a good friday yesterday. Celebrate mum's birthday. Spent most of the time at home and do cooking most of the time. Mum were told not to enter the kitchen. She resting most of the time. Had simple dinner together. Then surprise her to go Wayan Retreat today.


I had facial n body scrub. Love the facial as it makes my face more smoother. I think i will get the whole package of facial treatment. InsyALLAH...While mum had Ratu jongas, bath ritual & pedicure. She simply enjoying as we pay for all the treatments.


Do a little bit of work earlier but i am too lazy to finish them up. Too tired n lazy of course. After this will continue playing with little Aeisyah. :) :) :)

Alhamdulilah my hp bill went a bit lower again this month. :) Will lower it again if possible. :) :) :) Can save up more money then....InsyALLAH.....


Feeling so tired but a bit happy as get to met Mak Rah yesterday. Miss her so much after not meeting nearly 2 weeks. Had girl's talk then went for Dinner before we continue talking till 10.30pm as usual. I feels great everytime i talk to her. Maybe her advise and understanding gave me much confidence and relief most of the time.


Work is so bad lately. Too many issues. I nearly broke down yesterday. I scold a few suppliers especially the problematic ones. I nearly cry and luckily i manage to control my tears. They giving so much problem with so many stupid excuses. One of the printing supplier have been printing the forms a few times and yesterday he say he needs a sample as he did not print before. What a juke is that. When i told him what for you need to see the sample because you been printing a few times, all he say is that, i need to double confirm before i print out. What the heck is that??? Trying to act blur. Well, he will be coming over here to see the sample, and i am going to say some nasty things to him i hope. He also say that he was on leave so that's way most order did not proceed. Another stupid reasons. Very very bad service. Due to that the client do not have any more stock for the forms and have to wait for this idiot supplier. Because of all this hassle, i HAVE to change to another supplier for this client. Luckily i have ask the quotes before it just matter of bargain lower price with them. Have to get all change by next week. As more orders will be coming in soon....


I hope to get some good relax for the next few days....Thought of not bringing back my laptop but dont think so. Looks like i have to do work during this weekend. :( :( :(

Feeling so tired & busy these few days. A lot of request for quotations and issues about delivery. Alhamdulilah 50% were settle on the spot while some still pending. It will be remain unsettle till delivery is done fully. I even help out Hafiedzah with her invoices. It seems that this week, there are a lot invoices that came all in one shot.


Tomorrow there will be a few internal auditors coming to the office again. Arghhh why must they come again n again......Well i cant say anything as it is the policy for the auditors to come again n again till they satisfied with all the workflow...


Finally i watch "Lord of the Rings" yesterday. My brother brought it home for all of us to watch but i give it a miss as i dont find it interesting at that time. But Sunday nite, i watch it as a no choice. But at the end, i find the movie quite good. I even went home early yesterday just to watch the continuation of the movie. So i must follow up with the next series. :) InsyALLAH....

Only 4 of us went to the Wild wild wet. That is me, Ana, Andini & Farij. It is a boring place i can say. Did not have much fun. There were 2 slides that i could not take due to wearing Tudung & T-shirt. Ana & Andini also could not play it as they were wearing T-shirt n shorts. Only wearing Swim wear are allowed. So not much game to play. We play whatever we can once and we had enough. I think we only spent less than 3 hours there. Met my ex-classmate from secondary school there. He working there since the place open. I told him how boring the place and all he do is laugh. I think i prefer to go at Malaysia where ppl like me can place whatever i want. hmmm When shall i go there again....


After that, we all went to had early dinner at Swenson. All was quite fussy at first of where to eat. It took a while for us all to decide. In the end all had western food n ice-cream for desserts....


Uponing reaching home, Irfan is there having his meal. All of us looking at him trying to play with him and in the end, he did not finish his food as he earger to play with us all. Aeisyah began to like teletubbies. She like LALA a lot. We start off the song for her and she will say LALA and ehooooo (last part of the song). She sound so cute. She still cant speak properly yet. But she knew what she have been taught. For now she will basically points or just shout funny words.


Boring week for me this week. Been feeling down lately. Frustrated with a few ppl in the family. All i can do is just ignore them but at the same time it hurts me... Been crying due to feeling so sad. It been a while that i cry because of all this. I am feeling so down. :( Began to miss a few ppl like my aunt, Mak Rah n cousin, Nazrul....


Will be relaxing at home today watching tv. hope to do some revision later when i am not too tired.....InsyALLAH....

Last minute plan out to be Ernie & Hisham. We also manage to get Nurynn to join us. :) We had our dinner at Simpang Bedok. I went there once before but not Andini. We were late. By then we reached there, Nurhazrin n Bf have finish eating. As usual i had my favourite food, Mee Goreng. Andini & Ernie had Maggi Goreng while Hisham Nasi Ayam. We all update each other of what happening to each of us. And congrats to Nurhazrin for working full time. Nurhazrin left early while we join Ernie's friends. They all chat while me & Andini flip through wedding's magazine that were Ernie's.


My legs are feeling a bit cramp today. Maybe due to playing bowling on Thursday. Everyone complain that they are in pain yesterday but i only feel today. :( :( :(


We all be going to Wild Wild Wet today. My mum get a discount ticket entry from her work place. Not sure what time and who will be going. I hope to take a lot of pictures today if i can't bath there...


Now time to clean up the house as we will leave soon before noon i hope...

Been feeling dizzy too since last 2 days. A lot of work especially request for quotations n delivery issues. Alhamdulilah a lot of pending issues have been settled left a few pending that i hope to finish up ASAp by this today or next week the latest. InsyALLAH....


Yesterday went to Bowling again with my colleagues. Second time when bowling with the same group of ppl and at the same place too. Not really fun but i enjoy myself as a good relaxation after work. Then had dinner somewhere Marina South. I buy my own food from the Food Junction at Harbourfront Centre. The others eat Steamboat beside the Bowling Centre. Had a good time watching them doing the cooking and eating. All of them prefer to stand up while eating. So i sit along at the table watching them eat all the way. So many funny things that i could not stand laughing out loud. At least a few of them quite shock that the company did not go to somewhere Halal's place. But to me as long as my food that i buy is being paid by them is ok.


Hope i will not bring my laptop home today. Dont want to do any work during weekends as i want to relax at home and do some spring cleaning especially my room. A lot of things needs to re-arrange back.

Lately my body is feeling so tired. Even now i am having headache. Very very bad headache. All i want is now a pillow to sleepzzzzz.....


These few days were busy with quotations n etc...Alhamdulilah a lot of them i manage to finish up. Just a minor ones that are still pending. Hope to get it done by this week if possible....InsyALLAH.....


Today, the whole company will be having a retreat for all of us. It will be another bowling session at Marina South. We will be having dinner there too. And looks like i will have to buy my own food again. Hafiedzah will be on leave today n tomorrow. So hope my headache will be better by then....InsyALLAH....


I think i should see the doctor soon. Maybe next week or the next following week...InsyALLAH....

I am feeling tired and weak today. Having stomach cramp today. Feeling so sleepy too. Wish i could sleep longer. Will try to go home early today and rest.


Weekend is quite ok. Yesterday went to Wedding & Engagement invitations. The wedding were at Tampines. Get to see the couples on the "Pelamin" but did not took any photo. Too shy. Furthermore i did not bring any camera along, as i am too lazy. And so many surprise that day. The wedding happen to be my long long time ex-boyfriend when i am in secondary school. Yeah i still keep in touch with him especially his sister. He will be the one who usually call once in a while. The last time i met the whole family were around last year or last 2 years. Everyone looks different even they commented that i am getting chubby!!!


Reached home around 6 plus. Irfan were there already. He is quite playful nowadays. They went home around 11 plus. Andini & Bro Jaya follow them home as they will be going to JB today morning to fetch Zaki who went school trip there. By the time they went off, i was dead tired. Quickly clean the hall n kitchen then off to bed to sleep. I was dragging myself out of bed today. Feeling so lazy n tired.

My parents out early morning to JB. Andini & Ana sleep over at Bro Zaki's place last night. So i alone at my own room doing my work and read 2 magazine. Continue watching tv till late night before sleeping around 12 or 1 am i guess.


I have finish cooking and cleaning the house especially the kitchen. Will be going doctor to get some medicines especially for my face that been havening acne lately. Luckily they are going to clear off soon but needs more of the medicine. I have to make sure that it ie clear before i can stop eating. I did stop before but after a few months it came again. :(


Looks like will be at home. Will start my revision once i back from doctor later. InsyALLAH...

Been feeling tired lately. Sleepy too...Since i took supplements, my body seems tired more. Maybe it tell me that i need more rest especially at night. Nowadays i can sleep better at night. But at times i force myself to sleep late as i want to watch tv.


Been eating bread n a few dishes this whole week. That is the only way to cut cost n diet in my daily life. Me n Hafiedzah take turns to bring dishes. By dinner time i will be very hungry. It will depends if i eat rice or mee at home. Hopefully my weekends i will start doing jogging again. InsyALLAH.....


Looks like this weekend will be busy doing my revision. I got 10 chapters of 2 different subjects to cover by 2nd week of May. At fogetting practicing my shorthand too. Mak Rah been helping out and it looks ok for now.

Thought of updating my entry yesterday but too busy with work.


Something funny happen on Monday. I wear 2 different shoe and colour to work. One is Black wheres the other is Brown. I did not realise it the whole day till i came to mak rah's home. My uncle who spot it when he left the house to buy dinner. I was so shock as i did not realise it the whole morning!!! How simply i could not realise it at all. I even went out of office to check new Fuji Xerox Photocopy and still no one realise even myself. When i told my mum n Andini about it, both of them laughed loud and couldn't believe it. I simply also can't stop laughing when remembering it. What makes me still wondering is that, when i took the shoes from the cupboard, i simply did not check them. And it is my luck that i took 1 shoe for right n another 1 shoe for left.


Have a meeting yesterday for our department. Have a few task need to be done. Well, i hope i can do something by next month before the next meeting to update them. I simply have to call a few customers to check why is there a decline in ordering printing forms from them. Then if possible have to get their samples and re-quote to them. At the same time, i am helping Eric doing some data collection for new customers who might be using our platform soon in near future.

Feeling so tired today. Could not sleep well yesterday night. After watching apprentice, i told myself to get sleep or i will be tired today. I manage to sleep but woke up in the middle of the night a few times....


Spend the whole day at home cleaning n watching Tv of course. Watch Hindi movie that were brought by Ana. It is a funny movie. A lot of laughter in our rooms that make mum n Bro Jaya join in to watch with us. hehehehehehe


A lot of work today. So many emails......Hope to get all done by today. InsyALLAH...


Might be going to Mak Rah's house today. Hopefully i can go home early too. InsyALLAH...

Feels so frustrated lately...My mum been nagging non stop. It makes me piss off. Try to control the anger in me but most time i am really annoyed with her. Hiaz...


The renovation men are here. Looks like they will be doing the cupboard today. Hopefully they can finish up by today. If not tomorrow is the latest. A lot of work will be done tomorrow once they finish up. For today, just hope i get enought rest. Luckily my work are done. I manage to finish them. Alhamdulilah...

My legs are sore now...Too much walking...Plus with blister on my feet. Due to new shoes that i wear which i brought few months back...


Went out with Ana around 10am. Went to Comfort to apply my final theory again. It will be next month. Hopefully i will pass this time around InsyALLAH....


Then to Wayan retreat bali to get more details of their services. Well, getting a surprise treatment for my mum whose birthday is on this month. And we book some treatment for her on the 26 March 2005. Will see how it goes on that day. I myself get a facial n scrub treatment that day too. It will be my 1st time going to such places. Will tell more once i went there on that day. :) :) :)


Walked around to look for cloth. We get 4 metres cloth for $10 only. It only had 3 colours. We buy each for ourself n Andini. Will get it sew from somewhere. Then went window shopping at Bugis before we sat down at Siam Kitchen for Lunch. It was superb!!! Really really nice. We had the ala carte buffet. Told sis Maimunah to plan an eating outing with Mak rah n Cik Jamil's family during June holidays. And both of us will be paying for the meal. And good thing she agree. So we will be going there again in 3 months time. :) :) :)


Then Ana went to met her Boyfriend at Suntec while i head to Bedok for some shopping on my own. :) Met saleem's parents. Both of them n i were shock to saw each other after so long. His mum still the same as friendly as before. Like her so much that time but my relationship with Saleem have to end because of certain things. Well he still on n off contact with me via email or msn or hp. But no way we can work things out between us.....Chat with her asking how is she and she end the conversation asking me to come to her house again when i am free. All i could say InsyALLAH....Not sure if she knew what happen between me n his son....


I drop by at the Bedok Commercial School to get more inforation on the course that i am interested in. Will apply soon as the class might be starting on 3rd april 2005. And then head home to find no one at home. So here i am surfing the net....


Will have work to do as my colleague send some work over my personal email. With no choice i got to finish them up ASAP before Monday. There goes my weekend. Busy with work again....:( :( :(

I am still in the office now. Well my colleague asked me if i could teach her to do the Jewellery Making. I thought of charging her for the course fee but i told her that if i teach her Jewellery making, she will have to teach me Chinese.


Will be on leave tomorrow. Have a few things that need to be settle. Will be going out with Maimunah all day. Hope all will be done tomorrow.


Work been quite busy these few days. A lot of quotations n follow up need to be done. Luckily all my work for doing reports is done since on Tuesday. Alhamdulilah... If not i think i can't take any leave tomorrow.

Arghhhhhhh i did not save my previous entry and now i am lazy to retype them again!!!

Alhamdulilah Farij pass his O levels with 17 points. He will be going Polytechnic. :) Good for him. At least he proof to us all that he really study n knew what he is doing. Just hope he get into the right course and pass with flying colours. InsyALLAH....


I started to eat apply today. I dont like fruits and i will not eat unless someone force me or i left with no choice (Kes terpaksa). I decide to eat every morning 1 apple a day. As the advertisement say, "Eat apple a day". I hope i keep up with this good habit.


Went to Mak Rah's home yesterday n discuss about how should i study for my exams. Well, i failed 4 subjects so now she helping me to study. I will be starting my revision today and hopefully i dont have to stay at office in late. Lately work quite ok. Dont really have a big issues to settle. Most of my pending work is quite done. Just need some follow up need to be done.