I am so tired n sleepy. Sleep quite late yesterday. I think around 1am. I was watching this American Idol till 12am. I have never been following the show actually. Yesterday was kind of first time i watch it.


After the show, talk with Azli for 1 hr. Well, after so long we did not talk, we manage to catch up with things that been happening all this while.....Feels a bit better talking to him. :)


I miss my aunt. She still in Malaysia. :( Been sms her but no reply. Did sms my cousin, Nazrul n he also did not reply. Haiz... Don't know when she will be back. Miss her so much now...


An old gf called yesterday. Get to know that she been working at Keppel Shipyard which i been contacting all this while. She also quite shock to know about me working under TradeOneAsia. She been doing the invoices that i been sending to her department all this while. Now that i know she is working there, she will be helpful to help when i need some urgent things. ;)

I am so tired. A lot of things need to be done here at work...


I was on leave again on Tuesday for the exams. There were 2 papers on that day. Morning & Afternoon. The confident for the exams was 50 - 50 ok. The last paper will be on the 31st May 2004. After that will be free from exams.


When i came back yesterday, a lot of work was on my table. My colleague piled all up on my table. Instead doing it for me, he just put on my table. Giving reasons that he don't know what to do. He even list out a few things for me to do. He can do all that but he is simply lazy n pampered...


My parents confirmed will be going to Jakarta from 1st to 6th of June. A whole week without parents. This is what i am waiting for... hehehehehhehe The house will be handle by me using my own way n style. ;) Will have fun of course. Kak tini even plan out a few things so that we will not be so bored during that week. Might sleep over at her house at Tampiness. hehehehehe


A lot of things happens lately. All i do is keep myself away from a lot of people. Been ignoring a lot of phonecalls n sms from a few friends. Simply because i need to be alone. Do mood to talk to anyone at all except family members n dearie of course. Been ignoring my best friend, Azli too. Pity him doesn't know anything as he just came back from his holiday. Trying to reach me to catch up with things. But till now we did not have a good talk yet. Realise that i been missing him lately. Will try to find time to talk to him as i need to ask him a lot of things and of course tell him what happens lately. He is like a brother to me now. Gave me a lot of advise. Dearie been busy lately n i can't simply talked much with him. :( By the time he went home is late at night n by then both of us are tired. What ever the situation is, he try to make time the next time around. Well, i hope i can accept his busy schedule.....

2 days leave last week on Thursday & Friday. Were having my exams. Alhamdulilah it went good so far. I manage to finish my paper on Thursday. I am confident that i will pass for the paper on Thursday but not for Friday papers.


Office is in a big mess today. New cupboards just arrived on Saturday n today will be busy cleaning them all. Will be very busy today.


Will be on leave again for exam tomorrow. There will be 2 papers. Morning & afternoon.

SAHABAT…



Sahabat,

Pernah tak sahabat renungkan pada embun yg melitupi sarang labah2 dipagi2 hari ?
Pernahkah sahabat perhatikan itu?
Pernahkah sahabat perhatikan akan erti yg tersirat disebalik kejadian Allah itu?


Sahabat,

Ibarat sarang labah2 itu adalah cinta sejati seorang hamba pada Allah. dan cintanya yg sejati terhadap manusia kerana Allah.


Sahabat,

Pernahkah sahabat perhatikan pada labah2 yg sedang membina sarangnya?
Begitu tekun labah ini, dan begitu khusyuk dan bersungguh2 dia melakukannnya dgn penuh susah payah dan penuh kesukaran.
Bukanlah mudah membina struktur sekompleks sarang labah2.


Sahabat...

bukan mudah.... tapi dilaluinya juga kesusahan itu. kerana apa?
Kerana itulah " sunnatullah "
Kerana itulah fitrah seekor sang labah2
Kerana hendak menjadi pengajaran kpd akal manusia yg mahu berfikir.


Sahabat,

Begitu juga sifat cinta yg sejati...
Ia bukan dibina dgn mudah. ia bukan diperolehi dgn angan2 kosong atau Penantian santai... bukan!


Wahai sahabatku....

ia diperolehi melalui usaha
yg getir dan penuh dgn duri & ranjau.


Sahabat

Cinta pada Allah adalah usaha berpanjangan membina diri menjadi insan yg lebih sempurna.
Menyempurnakan ilmu melalui pembacaan dan pelajaran yg diperolehi dari arifiin.
Menyempurnakan ilmu dgn amalan yg istiqomah.
'Perumpamaan seorang yg berilmu tapi tak mengamalkan ilmu adalah spt pohon yg lebat daunnya tapi tak berbuah'.
Dari diri yg sudah mantap pengamalan ilmu itu
Datang pula dakwah. menyampaikan pada yg perlu.
'Sampaikanlah walau sepotong ayat'.
Along the way, perbagai ujian dan cubaan akan datang
menjadi tamu. menjengah menguji si ‘dia'. Apakah tegar cintanya pada Rabbnya...
Atau apakah cintanya hanya seperti embun di rantaian sutera labah2?


Sahabat,

Pernahkan sahabat perhatikan embun yg menumpang malam di rantaian sutera labah2?


Sahabatku,

itulah 'ibarat cinta dunia. cinta dunia tidak diminta datangnya.
Perginya pula seperti juga embun itu.
Tatkala datangnya mentari,
Maka sirnalah ia dari sutera labah2 tadi...
Seperti juga cinta dunia,
Pabila datang kematian,
Berpisahlah si kaya dgn hartanya.
Berpisahlah dia dgn saudara maranya utk dia menjawab soalan mungkar dan nakir.
Akan berpisahlah ia dari isterinya yg pernah menjadi tempat ia melafazkan sumpah dan janji setia.
Tempat ia meluahkan segala kesetiaan pengabdian.


Namun,

Yg akan tinggal bersamanya ialah hanya sekelumit mana ia menyimpan cintanya padaAllah... Itulah yg bakal menjadi temannya berhadapan dgn realiti yg pernah didustakannya suatu masa dahulu ketika mana hidupnya di atas dunia dahulu.


Sahabat,

Itulah cinta dunia.
Dan seperti juga embun yg akan menjadi tamu sutera labah2 saban fajar...
Begitu juga cinta dunia akan berkerumun
Mendekati dan menggoda orang2 yg hatinya sudah diabadikan kpd cinta pada Rabbnya...
Ia akan datang dalam perbagai bentuk....
Mungkin dalam bentuk harta2 yg bertimbun2,
Mungkin dalam bentuk kekuasaan yg tak terbatas,
Mungkin juga berbentuk ladang2 yg luas,
Mungkin juga terbentuk dari anak2 yg ramai
Mungkin juga terbentuk dari isteri yg terlalu mencintai dunia.
Tak siapa tahu apakah bahagiannya.
'Allah memberi petunjuk kpd orang yg diingininya dan menyiksa yg diingininya...'.


Sahabat,

Hendaklah, kita seperti sutera labah2 itu.
Walau kita dikerumuni cinta dunia,
Walau kita di hambat angin ujian,
Walau kita ditimpa hujan musibah.....
Hendaklah kita sehebat sutera labah itu.
Hendaklah cinta yg kita bina seperti sutera labah2 itu.
Baik dari segi tujuan akan pembinaannya,
Mahupun proses pembinaannya.
Tujuannya adalah utk memenuhi syiar Allah...
Menyempurnakan fitrah kemanusiaan.
Proses pembinaan adalah penuh dengan talbiah
Ruhiah yg baik diperlengkap dengan kefahaman yg mantap
Serta amalan yang istiqomah.


Sahabat,

Kita berlindung dgn Allah dari tertipu dgn tipu daya nafsu dan syaitan.
Hinggakan kita tersilap membina cinta ini,
Kita isi cinta yang dibina dgn 'embun dunia'.
Bila datang realiti kehidupan,
Maka cinta yg telah disulam dengan kata2 manis
Dan janji setia itu sirna bertukar menjadi mimpi2 malam yg menagih2 nikmat tidur.
Dikhuatiri bila,
Kesusahan hidup datang bertamu.
Bila masalah sedebu menjadi sebatu...
Ketika itulah embun2 segar dunia tadi tersejat dan hilang entah kemana.
Yg tinggal hanyalah
Kesedihan dan penderitaan.

I am so tired...My head still aching since Sunday...


Sunday, 16 May 2004

Went to Science with Andini & my parents. My mum have free tickets to there. It quite enjoying and old memories come back. I think the last time i went there is during my primary school days. Memories of me still in Kindergaten also came back. :) It was a sweet old memories of my childhood. Wish i could turn back the time...


Monday, 17 May 2004

Went to work at 9.3oam as i am too tired ro wake up. Thought of taking MC but then a lot of work has to be done. A lot of pending work has to be settle by Wednesday. As i will be on Leave on Thursday & Friday for my exams.


Get to know that my aunt is at JB at my pak long house. I was informed by Nazrul yesterday. No wonder i been thinking about her lately. I hope everything is okies with her. Will call her later to ask how is she there...

Yesterday were a full attandance for 4 of us. Follow up with the latest news from each of us.... A great day to end the day yesterday. We all sit at Coffee bean at Tampiness. The place is quite crowded and don't think will be sitting there again...


Supinah, ask her bf to pop up a while to met us. Nice knowing him n good to know that she is happy with him.... :)


Everyone seems a bit surprise when i told them about dearie... It been a month that i been going out with him... The gals was quite piss of at 1st but they kind ok about it later on as they knew that i am like that. Seldom talk about my life. It is only through Blog world that i reveal most of it... Easy to write it down rather than saying it out... And 2 of them do not knew about my blogging world except Ct2...


Reached office early again today. Took taxi to work with mum. Well my dad received 10 taxi vouchers after sending his car for services last few days. He use a few of them. So he gave a few to me n mum so that we can take taxis to work. No choice i have to reach office very early... Good thing that i reach earlier as there's a lot need to finish up ASAP...


Spent most of the mornings today doing auction at the office. Will have another one later around 3pm...

Got the list below through email from Ernie....


Remember the simple rules to be happy:


1. No one can go back and make a brand new start.


2. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.


3. God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain,

but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.


4. Disappointments are like road bumps,

they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards.


5. Don't stay on the bumps too long. Move on!


6. When you feel down because you didn't get what you want,
just sit tight and be happy,
because God has thought of something better to give you.


7. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means.

There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.


8. You can't make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved;
the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.


9. It's better to lose your pride to the one you love,
than to lose the one you love because of pride.


10. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love,
when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.


11. Never abandon an old friend.
You will never find one who can take his place.
Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.

Suppose to go to my aunt's place but were cancel. Last minute my colleagues all decided to visit 1 of our colleagues who were admitted in the hospital yesterday morning. It was shock news for us all. She was admitted at SGH and she accidently cut her 2 fingers. I think she was going some grinding somethings n thats when she accidently grind a bit of 2 fingers. It was scary to her that. She was addmitted n might be there for a few days. And of course will be on leave for 2 weeks i guess. 8 of us went there together.


After that 4 of us decided to go for Dinner. We end up eating at the Indian food near around there. As usual, i order my favourite food, "Mee Goreng" and other 3 eat only Prata. Had a nice day with all of them.


I began to like to stay here longer as i realise how close i am with some of the people here. It was so much fun. We jokes and had a good laugh together.... Well work will be always overwork. All of us are doing multi tasking. I guess it all depends how things are in future but for now stick to what i have now...


My mum propose to go Jakarta next mth. I can't go as my leave is not enough. I will not have enough by end of the year which i might be having exams again. She still planning n have not confirm yet. Well, if she go then it will be fun without parents at home. hehehehehe I would love to go to Jakarta as miss the place already. Used to go there frequently last time. But as i told my mum, i have to give it a miss this year. I can only have a long leave next year, InsyALLAH if there is any chances...


Might be meeting my 3 gfs tonight. Miss them so much now... Need to met them up as most of us have lots of stories to tell... :) Hopes the all are there tonight...

Suppose to go to my aunt's place yesterday but she was not at home. With no choice, i went back home straight. Was looking forward to met her yesterday. Miss her so much already...


When i am home, my 2 sistas went out for tuition. Left mum n younger brother, Farij. Had dinner then head to my room to do my revision. Realise a lot of things need to revise. I got 8 days left for my exam.


Went to work today taking Cab. Dad sent his car for servicing n he got 10 vouchers for taking cab. He gives 1 to mum n we take the cab together to work today. Usually will take Bus no 30 to work. Reach work place quite early around 7.45am. As usual check my emails, read blog n etc....


Hopes my aunt is home tonight. Have to met her ASAP as miss her so much already...Need to talk to her a lot of things. She is the only person i turn to most of the time. Especially when i am feeling down after wat happens at home.....

Easy is to get a place in someone's address book.
Difficult is to get a place in someone's heart.


Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes.


Easy is to talk without thinking
Difficult is to refrain the tongue.


Easy is to hurt someone who loves us.
Difficult is to heal the wound....


Easy is to forgive others
Difficult is to ask for forgiveness.


Easy is to set rules.
Difficult is to follow them....


Easy is to dream every night.
Difficult is to fight for a dream....


Easy is to show victory.
Difficult is to assume defeat with dignity....


Easy is to admire a full moon.
Difficult is to see the other side....


Easy is to stumble with a stone.
Difficult is to get up....


Easy is to enjoy life every day.
Difficult is to give it real value....


Easy is to promise something to someone.
Difficult is to fulfill that promise....


Easy is to say we love.
Difficult is to show it every day....


Easy is to criticize others.
Difficult is to improve oneself....


Easy is to make mistakes.
Difficult is to learn from them....


Easy is to weep for a lost love..
Difficult is to take care of it so as not to lose it..


Easy is to think about improving.
Difficult is to stop thinking it and put it into action....


Easy is to think bad of others
Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt....


Easy is to receive
Difficult is to give.


Easy is to read this
Difficult is to follow it.


Easy is to keep a friendship with words
Difficult is to keep it with meanings..

Feeling so sleepy...I just wish i could sleep longer....


Met up with Dearie yesterday at the last minute plan. Buy Dinner at Marine Parade n we sit at East Coast to eat our Dinner. The windy was so good that we decide to spent the rest of the night chatting there.


A lot of work lately. Have to do them ASAP as most of them are urgent. Good thing the work is a group work. Doing it with my colleague, Eric and we had a great time together. hehehehe Lots of laugh of course. ;)


9 more days to my 1st exam papers. Will submit my leave my today. Will take at least 5 days leave. It will not be straight 5 days but at least i will get a break from my work...

New settings from Blogger. Refreshing... :) Good improvement. Quite confusing at first but overall is good.....


Try to blog from home but still cannot. It keep hanging at the same page....


Here what i did for the last 2 days.


Saturday, 8 May 2004

Spend the whole day at home. Watch Kal Ho Naa Ho. It was a great movie. I cry at the end of the show. I manage to hold on my tears during the show but at the end i can't hold it up anymore... Even Andini too was cyring. hehehehehe So not only me at that time crying after watching it. :) Went to Syarahan with my sister in law, Kak Tini. Finally had a ladies talk with her. She so understanding. She began to knew me well although i never really talk to her about my personal things. Feels great that she willing to listen n gave her opinions. :) :) :)


Sunday, 9 May 2004

It was Mother's day. My sister order a bunch of flowers to be send to our house early morning. It came around 7.30am while most of us sleeping except my mum. She was so surprised as she never expect us to do that....


Ct2 will be taking an Urgent Leave again. Her mouth still swollen after seeing the Dentist on Friday. Hope she is getting well soon. Will be going to my school later during Lunch time to take my entry slip. 10 more days to go for my 1st paper...I did some revise but still not a gd one.....


Might be meeting dearie today. It all depends if he can finish up early....

Last minute cancel to visits my 2 gfs tomorrow. Ct2 took half day today to see the dentist. She have to take 1 of the teeth out today. So tomorrow she will be not ok to go anywhere. Furthermore her brother is getting engaged on Sunday. So will postponed to next week i hope.


The mood in the office today is so moody. I don't feel like working today. I thought i am alone with this feeling but my colleague, Eric too have this feeling. We are counting the minutes now to 6pm.


My body is aching today the whole day. Will set at the Osim Chair at home later at nite. Need a gd message.....

Still did not sleep well yesterday. Now i am so sleepy.


After work yesterday, went to Old Airport Road with Ct2 n my colleague, Darren to eat Satay there. :) He was driving and he wanna have dinner with us. So there we went as he claim that the satay there is very nice. It is ok ok for me. We order 40 sticks and i ate 14 sticks. He was so surprised that i can eat a lot. hehehehehehe Ct only eat 10 stick of satay.


Feeling so bored with work lately. Not much work n it is a gd thing. But still bored sometimes. I know that i complain a lot but i feel bored to do the same work i guess. Haiz.......


Will make plans tomorrow to met Ct1 n my ex-colleague, Kak Sharina. Will see 2 different babies tomorrow InsyALLAH. Will try to take the pictures for tomorrow event. :) :) :) In love with babies lately. If tomorrow permits n go as plan, i have met up with 4 different babies for this month only. heheheehheehe

Feeling so tired n sleepy. My body aching again....


Could not get a gd sleep yesterday. It been 2 days now. Haiz... A lot of things on my mind lately n it effect my sleep too. Work is getting bored n bored lately... I think i will have to bring my book over here so that i can study at the same time... hmmm that will be a gd idea......

At last i manage to change my layout. Nearly took me the whole day..........

I am so tired today. Will go home straight today n sleep early maybe...

Manage to upload all the pictures yesterday. Will upload more of the office event soon. I am arranging the pictures for easy reference. :) :) :) I think i need a new layout for my blog soon. Will find a new one & find a suitable time to change it....


Click HERE for Saturday Pictures......



Manage to take Aeisyah latest pictures.....

Had a great day for the last 2 days....


Saturday, 1 May 2004
Met up with a few of my colleagues at Macdonald East Coast. We just hang out there chatting all the way and playing around with the babies. That is their first time outing. We share among 11 of us to buy the twin stroller for him. Will upload the pictures soon. :) Loves the babies. I carry one of the twins all the way. Loves the baby smell....


Sunday, 2 May 2004
Met up my ite gfs at Orchard. Suppose to be 6 of us but in the end only 4 of us were there. Manage to catch up with the 3 of them. 2 of them will be getting married by next year. Will have more outings in future before they are officially becomes wife. hehehehehe They been engaged for a year now. Glad to hear that they are settling down soon. :)


Thought of fasting today but did not wake up for "Sahur" today so i am half day fasting today. Will try to fast again tomorrow and make sure it last to the end of the day...Well i guess i been eating quite alot lately n did not really look for out my diet. So decide to fast to cut down on my eating habits. Not that i wanna slim down or what but it is just the eating habits that i realise i been having. Eating too much n etc.... It helps to save for me too. hehehehehe


I am so much in love lately...He knew how to makes me smile all the time. I am happy with him. Just hope things will be good. InsyALLAH.....