The weather is good this morning. It was raining. Woke up for a while. Eat my supplements and continue my sleeping. Baby Irfan woke up already buy too tired to "layan" him. But i still feeling sleepy now.


It been 10 days when i least saw him. Miss him so much already. Well, he been kind of busy with work and other stuffs furthermore we wanna see how long it takes both of us can hold on for not meeting for a while......Thought of meeting up today but looks like weather been not good. It looks like will be raining again. Furthermore he have to work today. So might be just be at home only.....Maybe tomorrow or 1 of the weekdays....


Talked to my cousin, Nazrul, yesterday night. It been months since we last talk to each other. Miss him too....Haiz....He engaged now and will be getting married in a few months soon....I still can't accept it but i have to let it go.....No one approved our relationship in the past. And we do not want to make things more difficult for both of our family in future. Even now there have been a few issues and we decide to let it go....It hurts and kind of difficult.....just imagine the feeling of love started so long time ago when we only like 12 or 13 years old. Too young to know anything at that time. But we began to realise it after my bro zaki's wedding which were around 3 or 4 yrs back......Haiz....Well, we are fated not to be together i guess but we are still close to each other....Which i think, i should stay away more......No matter how less talks or met, we still very very close... Maybe we are just fated to be close but not together.....Haiz....And now i am crying caused it hurts a lot to lose someone.....


When i think back, good thing my parents do not allow me to go, Nazrul n his finacee will be going together too. I am not sure how will it be going together with him n her......Yeah i should forget him for good. It will take times as the feling have been there for more than 10 years now...Hope the new person on my life can helps me overcome that.....InsyALLAH....