Very very tired today. And it was raining heavily today. Wish i was at home sleeping. Had to go Bukit Batok for the wedding. It was quite a grand wedding where her theme was Batik. Too bad it was raining heavily all the way to evening. The place was a bit crowded too. Maybe due to heavy rains...As usual a few "makcik makcik were asking when will be me n my sister's turn. All we can say is wait long long k ;) The same question whenever there is a wedding or during Hari Raya or anything....


So soon the weekends have ended...It seems so fast. I think i will try to get some early sleep today.

Tiring day today. But spent lesser time at work as i was out nearly half the day at customer's place to do simple training and short meeting too. Alhamdulilah it went well. But at the same time, i feel a bit frustrated that my colleague, Eric keep interrupting me along the way. I nearly lose my temper to him in front of the customer but i manage to controk it. I think i will need to talk to him face to face that he been irritating for the past few weeks. When he talk, he tend to shout although u are near him. He been quite different these few weeks. I thought he only did that to me, but it seems my other collague also face the same problem...


There will a big change in the company. It will be slowing change but not sure if things will work out or not....Haiz....I am getting worries actually as i dont know if the company will survive...Part of me wanna stay and part of me wanna leave. Haiz...

I think i will start looking for new job. I am getting frustrated with my work more and more. Simply they understand when i say urgent or complaints about some issues. Arghhhh....


Couldnt sleep well again yesterday. Something bothering me and it is still inside my head now...I dont know how to write it down here even. Haiz....So stressful!!! I guess i am already pissed off with a lot of things with work and now with my personal things. Haiz...I feel like crying now.....

Feeling so tired today. Couldn't sleep well. I keep turning right n left till 1 or 2 am before i fall asleep. I keep waking up in between. Haiz...I guess something bothering me and that makes me can't sleep at all...


By the way, he came back into my life. He been sms me for the past few weeks. Last Friday nite, he call me up to talk to catch up with lots of things. In the end, we plan to met up on Saturday. We did met up and had late Lunch together. It was nice meeting up and he did say that we may met up again. He say the next time might for movies or just hang our together like last time. Part of me feels happy but part of me feeling so insecure. I dont know if he wants to came back to be together or just as normal friends where he only needs me cause he feels lonely. I did ask but all he say that he miss me to be around him. Yeah i miss him too but i just feel dissapointed of what he did last time. He ends the relationship just because he not really sure of the relationship. Haiz...Maybe i will need to talk to him again about this if we met up again...For now, i just go with the flow...


Went to my ex-collague's home as his son is 1 month old. A lot of ex-collagues came over. Happy to saw everyone there. :) :) :) I realise how i miss the old times when we were all at old office, Far East Square. So many good things happen there. Of course nice food too. I came as early as 4pm till 6pm. Thought of staying till 5pm but waiting for my dear ex-colleague who were so late. Luckily he did not send me or i will be very very early too.


Bro Zaidi and family stay over. It was nice to have small kids at home. :) Get to play more with the 2 kids. :) Both of them were sick with flu.

I still feeling sleepy. Thought of coming late to work today but they have arrange meeting at 9.30am later and it will be involve by our dept...If not i would have more sleep. And i have nite class tonight so confirmed i will be very tired later. And worst today will have another round of test paper. Been doing it 2 times. We need to answer at least 4 questions. Trust me all of them are very difficult. The most difficult paper i ever sit for. No MCQ (Multiple Choice Questions) at all. Just hope i will do better this time around. InsyALLAH...


Someone been asking about my future. hmmm I dont know how to answer that at times. Cause i dont really plan most of the things. Sometimes i just have a thinking about something but i dont really make it happens most of the times. I just go with the flow. Yeah it is good if you can plan things but i find that planning doesn't happen accurately as what we want. So i dont put really bother at times....

I am feeling so sleepyyyyyzzzzzz.....It been 3 days straight that i am feeling so sleepy n weak. To keep myself awake, i been drinking thick tea tarik. Yeah i dont take coffee cause i dont like it. Tea can makes me awake. Especially thick ones.


Went to class and good thing the teacher end it earlier. By right the class end yesterday but she is having 2 additional class. It will be this Friday and next Tuesday. Then next month will be the exam. I will be taking 3 days for it. The paper will be on Thursday. So i took leave on Wednesday and additional day on Friday for enjoying. :) :) :)

I am so sleepy today...Watch the drama "DIA" till 12.30am and as i predicted, both of Ivan & Dia finally get married at the end. But happen to Susi & Andi??? Not really good ending cause we do not know what happen to both of them. And Fifi too. What punishment she received??? Boring ending....


BTW parents finally decide to buy a new dining table after nearly 20 yrs using the old one. The table n chair began to drop off lately. That is why my parents decide to buy new one. So today we shall have new dinning table. :) :) :)


I received good news from my acting GM. I shall be getting performance bonus. I only will received it at the end of the year. Haiz...Looks like i shall be staying here longer then. hehehehehe I guess thats one of the reasons why they gave the money later. So make sure ppl stay longer. Will see how things goes as there will be a lot changes in coming weeks. Hope the changes is good for everyone. InsyALLAH...


Finally the results are out. Haiz I failed them again. I dont know whether i should gave up totally or try again. If try again means more money needed to pay for the class and of course the exams fee. I am still thinking but at the same time i am thinking of taking the LCCI in Call Centre course. Not sure yet as i am still trying to find out the details of the course first...

I nearly forget to bring my laptop to work today. I was walking half way to the lift when i suddenly remember that i did bring my laptop home and by right i should bring it back to office today. Quickly went back home to take it. This is the 1st time i am so forgetful...Cannot imagine i really forgets it. No laptop to work on.


My back start to feel pain again. Haiz...Don't know why it keep feels pain lately. At first the pain came when i was having my menses last month but the pain is back when i just finish it. The doctor also can't figure out why. Haiz...


Will having a long meeting with my dept manager later. Basically to update individual of us on the work lately. A lot of things been happening too. Haiz...Just hope things will get better soon...InsyALLAH

Very very tired today....Helping mum cleans the fridge earlier. It is now full of her tupperware's container inside. hehehehe yeah she puts everything in them. Before she used a few only but now everything is in the container. It looks neater of course. BTW she also label all of them. hehehehe I told her ppl who is first time seeing our things inside will get the things easily as all are being label. :)


No celebration for mother's day today. As usual we all did not really celebrate it. Don't know why but we have not celebrate it since young. Furthermore she been having fever for the last few days. She been sleeping most of the time but yesterday & today, she manage to have some strength to do the cooking. I told her to let me do it but she still insist of doing them. So as usual, she do the cooking while we all help out.


BTW received sms from an old old gf. I think i did mention this old gf before. She getting married in July and now then she looked me up for help. I used to very closed to her. So closed that we are like sister. I dont know what i have done that she just getting further from me. Haiz...She ask my help for all the friends number which i don't have all.Most of them i contact through friendster only. So i simply told her their nicks and let her contact them directly. That's the best i can do for her cause i dont want to help more than that. Cause i am still hurt by what she did. She did not bother to explain or even say sorry at all. Another gf of mine say to ignore but i dont think i will ever do that to anyone. No matter how hurt i am, i still talk to you but not as close as last time i guess...

Finally i manage to change my layout. I took out a few things from the blog. Decide not to used it for now...Feels happy with it. :) :) :)


Spent the day today at home. Chat and surf net most of the time. I manage to finish some of my work too :) Chat at MIRC too. Get to chat with some old chatters here. Still remember how addicted i am to MIRC last time...Now only once a while when i bring back my laptop then i chat.


Will be going out with my 2 sisters tomorrow. To send our cloth to tailor. hehehehe yeah a bit early but she will take at least 2 mths to finish them up. We all dont mind that so let it be then. At least we have send it to her...

I am so tired....The last few days were madness. A lot of things needs to be done ASAP. Alhamdulilah almost all of them i manage to clear especially the urgent ones. With the help of the 2 temp gals of course. I get more things today. Hope u do it tomorrow or during the weekends...


Received a shocking ners on Monday. T1A GM is resigning. Yes he is leaving the company and his last day is today. I was quite shock when i heard it. Too speechless to say anything to him. I did not work closely with him but i still feel sad about it. Even though i don't like him most of the time, i still feel sad about it. I feel so loss suddendly. Maybe i scared that the company will close and i lost my job. Haiz i really don't know...I am a bit happy he is gone but at the same time i am feeling scared too. For the time being, a colleague of mine will be in-charge for now. Our parent company will be looking for a new GM. How soon it will be is still not known. Haiz...I just hope things will be ok...InsyALLAH...


On Tuesday, my parents say that they will be going to Malaysia till Sunday maybe. A few of our long distant relatives are sick. So they are rushing to there on Tuesday night itself. The past few days are parents free. :) :) :)


I think i will change my layout soon...Hopefully i get it done during the weekends...

Dont's have to vote yesterday as Chai Chee is under Marine Parade. So just spent the day at home doing my work. I bring back my laptop home. Manage to clear half of my pending work. Hope to finish another half today so that i can do other things tomorrow...InsyALLAH....


Congrats to my "Anak Sedara", Nor who "Nikah" on Friday. :) So happy for you although i only get to know it on the day itself. Manage to sms her early morning while on the way to work. She will be doing the "persandingan" this coming August. That one for sure will attend. :)


I sense that for the last few weeks, i been having a bad temper. My mood seems to be not good. I simply get angry easily. I admit that i am hot-tempered person but i seldom let ppl see that bad side of me. Most of the time, i control it but once i explore, it is very very bad...Maybe too many things happen at the same time. Haiz...Even now i am facing some financial problems again...Haiz...

Marriage topic being brought up again...I am quite pissed off. My parents keep bugging me again n again with the same topis. Haiz...They just ask a few weeks ago and now they asked again. I haven't find anyone yet so let it be ah...Like i say previously, who doesn't want to get married. They even mention that they want to try to match make me up. All i say to them is that, i dont mind getting to know their recommendations but do not put high hope on it. Doesn't mean u recommend someone, i have to get married to him. just let it to ALLAH to decide when n whom i shall married....

Things dont look good lately. A few things happen. It make me so stress that i am feeling weak. Been having flu plus on n off headache...Thought of going doctor but too busy with a lot of things here...Furthermore i prefer to be busy rather than doing nothing. Cause i tend to think about the sad things that had happen recently. It will hurts me more. Just hope things will be better soon...InsyALLAH...


Work quite stress lately. A few things need to be done ASAP. 1 of my colleague is on leave and i have to follow up for her. And it is worst when customer chase for it ASAP. Then on my side there is a few urgent issues also. So stress up. Luckily Eric help to solve the issue although he have to do other things now...A few ppl will be leaving...And all these ppl came after i am working here...Some did ask when going to be mine turn? hmmm i dont know if i should start looking now. I thought of getting a few certificate first before looking for a new one. For the time being, i will just stick here although the work is suck at times.


Will be having another exam next month for my LCCI in Customer Service course that i took. It will be just 1 day exam but it will be conducted at night. The teacher did gave us some practice for the exams. She even let us do open book test. The questions are quite difficult and i even failed it. I started reading the notes and try to understand it more. Maybe i will try out the questions again and marked it as the teacher did gave us the full answer for it. Once i have the cert for this, i will start looking for new job maybe...